Okay, if you’re on my Goodreads, you will see this post. That’s because my blog posts pop up on the feed there…even if I’m not on Goodreads myself.
So, I left Goodreads for the time being — time being could be a long time but I’m not swearing off the site all together, I’m not sticking a finger up at it or anything. This has nothing to do with censorship or people being particularly “mean” but rather anticipation of people making me cry, even if they don’t mean to — if that makes any sense.
You see, deep down I am a fragile little flower (different from a special snowflake). And though I’ve written over thirteen books (a pen name book, four novellas and seven novels in Experiment in Terror, two books in The Devil’s Series, and three in The Artists Trilogy), and have had my work absolutely brutalized, torn-apart, made-fun of, my skills and talent skewed, etc, etc. I thought I had developed a thick skin.
Well I have in the sense that I don’t comment on negative reviews. And I do understand everyone is entitled to their opinion (after all, I leave bad reviews too). And one person’s opinion doesn’t mean everyone will feel the same.
But in the end, when I see that someone doesn’t “get” what I’m trying to do, it can hurt.
I don’t like to hurt. Sometimes you can push off the review — as I have been doing for two and half a years since I have been published — and say, well, different fucks for different ducks.
And sometimes I can’t. Lately…whether it be stress from writing or stress from this dark, dark industry (let me spin you a tale there, because whoo boy you have no idea how cutthroat and unstable the publishing industry is these days), I can’t NOT take things personally.
Look…I know this last book in The Artists Trilogy is going to disappoint some people. They they won’t be happy with it. And yeah, maybe it’ll ruin the whole series for them.
But I ended the book the only way I knew how, the way I had planned from the very beginning. I knew how Bold Tricks would go when I started writing Sins & Needles, that is how I plot ALL of my books and series — way the fuck in advance. It’s the only way I know how to write. I dropped clues the whole time, I measured out hints, I made sure that hopefully some people would have an idea of what was to come. My characters did stay true to the people that I knew them to be…deep inside.
I’m fucking proud of the series and that book. Bold Tricks is my favorite book because I finally got to wrap things up and give it an ending I found fitting. I cried, I laughed, I swooned and I was fucking high for days when I wrote THE END. Seriously. It was an AMAZING feeling I can’t even describe.
I realize MANY people will not agree with me. I know I have to let it go.
There are also people who will appreciate the vision — I got a four star amazing review in PRINT for Bold Tricks in the Romantic Times Magazine…how cool is that?
But it still stings when you can’t make everyone happy, you know? And people have their right to wish I had written an entirely different book. I didn’t. But they can want that.
So really, the best thing is to keep away from the negativity and Goodreads. I’ll miss the good reviews here but I’ll also miss the bad. The point is I love the book and it told ELLIE’S STORY the way I meant for it to be told. Disagree with me all you want but…I won’t see it now. And I’ll probably be a LOT happier.
That said, one of the great things about Goodreads is finding other books to read and leaving and recommending books of your own. It’s hard to do that as an author because you see your own reviews a lot. So, I’m moving over to BookLikes. I already have a page there. I plan to use BookLikes just to blog about the books I’ve read because I love doing that and having discussions…about other people’s work.
In the meantime, I’m still on Facebook. I am on Twitter (see sidebar). And I’ll keep blogging here so people on Goodreads can still have it pop up on the feed. I’ve got more book announcements and cover reveals and giveaways and all sorts of things. And if you want to drop me a line, you can always email me at AuthorKarinaHalle@gmail.com
Thanks for being so great Goodreaders for all these years!! Remember, it’s not you…it’s me. And it’s just time for me to step away.